Stephen King has written that he usually writes 2,000 words a day. He has a routine. He writes in the morning. In the afternoon, he reads.
I am unable to maintain a writing routine.
The most I ever wrote was 4 or 5,000 words in one sitting.
It took me three years to finish a sonnet.
I often write 200 words of fiction and feel rather satisfied.
20,000 words of non-fiction and 20,000 words of fiction are not at all the same.
One might take me four months, the other might take me four years.
I have not found E.B. White’s quote that, “A writer who waits for ideal conditions under which to work will die without putting a word on paper,” to be true in my life.
Sometimes, with my fiction, like with Edge Play X, for example, which is my work most akin to standard fiction, I have pushed through on certain chapters or paragraphs. The technique is different for a standard work of fiction.
For my literary fiction, I wait. I cannot manufacture it. I wait for it to arrive. It makes the back of my neck tingle. I feel light-headed when it comes. Certainly this is one of the reasons my literary fiction is unsuccessful. It is not writing. It is a personal spiritual experience. Doesn’t that sound cheesy. I don’t know how else to describe it. Feel the spirit working through you, the guru says.
It isn’t spiritual. It’s psychological. It’s all these imprints in the subconscious coming forward. It is a representation of unspoken beliefs about society and people and how we love one another. My brother was a schizophrenic and I am a writer.
Afflictions like that tend to run in families.
It wakes me up at night sometimes when it comes.
How long now have I been working on this latest book? Not even 20,000 words long. So close now. Why do I not feel a need to publish my works of literary fiction? I wrote them for myself. It isn’t selfish, it’s cathartic, like popping a boil.
Ha. New writing quote. Writing is like slicing open a boil.
The best writing I have ever read was often smeared with bodily fluids.
I can’t be the only woman who has had sexual fantasies involving Dostoyevsky. Never about Nabokov.
Fiction word count this week: 0.